don't you hate that when everything seems to be going right, it seems like everything will soon be perfect everything has to come crashing down.
well not everything but important things.

I hate that you are leaving me, but im happy for you because you are excited.
im going to miss you so much, which is weird for me, i dont know if ive ever missed anyone before. Like truely miss anyone, sure i tell people i've missed them, but in reality it is just a string of words, there is not meaning behind it unless you put it there.

i loved that everything just fell into place. Nothing was done just out of routine, we genuinely wanted to see eachother and talk and laugh and make eachother feel better. i cant even describe how we became best friends it just sort of happened. and i love the spontetuity of our relationship. I'm certain i could not keep a conversation with staten island accents with anyone else, or run around pretending im an indian with anyone. or sing about shnitzel.

this is just the worst time for you to go because i want to still be best friends with you and to explore our friendship even more....no homo?
like i want to go on adventures and become even closer, and i want to laugh and cry and dissaprove of eachother.
and i want to always be there for you, and be able to just go see you, but i know once you move you arent going to really want that anymore. you'll have new bestfriends and a new life and why would you want the past to visit. everyone says they will visit you but it is half hearted we all know that it will most likely not happen, meanwhile i would like nothing more then to be stuck on a mountain with you, adventuring and causing trouble.



i guess we will just have to see how everything pans out.
it would be just like me to leave everything up to chance.

I used to have friends.

i obviously forgot the part where who you are and what you have in common don't actually matter in a friendship.
all that matters is whether you smoke or not.






pathetic.

i love rain storms and forts and bread and life.
and taking my time.
and baybeees, okay mostly the older ones.



work is interesting.
my life is pretty wonderful, and sometimes uneventful.
relay for life just happened, and it was completely crazy due to hours upon hours of rain.
and being outside and in a tent, and it being freezing, i wouldn't take it back though.

this weekend is promising.
it may only be Monday, but i can look forward to the weekend as much as i want.
Islands will be wonderful, unless it isn't, in which case it will still probably be awesome.

Just started working.
still training.
everything is wrong.
little kids shouldn't be allowed to have bigger than a small.
tips are nice.


this should be interesting.

sleeping is overrated.

horrible people.




just stop.

new.
fresh.
clean.
crisp.


perfect.